Audio Series

Uncensored Therapy

What practitioners actually think. A private audio series for mental health professionals.

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Collecting haunts: the clients who never leave your mind

Every therapist carries a specific inventory of clients who will not leave. Not the successes. The ones who left before …

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Diagnosing your ex-husband in session

The training does not turn off when you go home. Every therapist with enough years behind them has done this, and almost …

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Empathy fatigue: when compassion turns into disgust

The burnout literature describes empathy fatigue. It does not describe the stage that comes after. This episode …

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Faking empathy for an hour

There is a thing that happens in the clinical hour that graduate training never names. Not because it is uncommon. …

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Giving up on a Borderline before the first session

The diagnosis arrives before the client does. This episode is about what happens in the therapist in the time between …

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Grieving the ones who get better

The clinical literature on termination is written from the client's perspective. This episode is written from the …

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I liked her better before she healed

The client who heals is not the person the therapist worked with through the crisis. That person changes when the crisis …

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I miss the clients who needed me too much

There is a category of clinical loss that the profession does not give therapists language for. This episode provides …

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Keeping them in treatment for the mortgage

The financial structure of private practice creates a specific pressure on clinical judgment that the training …

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Lies that help more than truth

There is a category of clinical intervention that the training literature calls technique and that a more honest …

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Manipulating the spouse to leave

The profession teaches that the therapist presents options neutrally. This episode makes the case that this is a …

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My burnout looks like enlightenment

The symptoms of advanced therapist burnout and the qualities attributed to mature therapeutic practice look, from the …

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My favorite pathological liar

Not all clinical relationships ask the same thing of the therapist. This episode is about the client who asks for …

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My favorite sociopath

The clinical literature on antisocial personality disorder describes the population almost entirely in terms of what it …

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My inner supervisor is drunk

There is a clinical competency nobody teaches in reverse: how to stop the training from interfering with the work. This …

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My unspoken crushes in session

The training literature on erotic transference is written almost entirely from the perspective of the client's feelings …

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Righteous cruelty in the name of growth

The clinical frame can be used to justify causing a client pain in ways that would not be acceptable in any other …

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Secretly enjoying someone's relapse

A client's relapse after a period of stability produces something in the therapist that is not adequately described by …

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Strategic gaslighting for a good cause

There is a clinical intervention that the training literature calls reframing and that a less comfortable description …

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Taking a client you know you can't help

Every honest therapist knows the intake where the answer should have been no. This episode is about what happens when …

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The addiction of hearing secrets

The moment a client says something they have never said to anyone else produces a specific experience in the therapist …

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The client who reminded me of my mother — and paid for it

Unresolved personal history enters the room regardless of training. Every experienced therapist has had the client who …

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The client who taught me to manipulate better

Therapists learn from their clients in ways that the training literature does not describe accurately. This episode is …

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The confession that shouldn't have healed me

There is a category of clinical encounter that changes the therapist, not the client, or at least not only the client. …

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The day I wanted to slap a client

The clinical term countertransference covers a range of experience that includes some things it is more comfortable to …

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The dopamine hit of being needed

There is a specific reward built into the structure of a therapeutic relationship where the client depends on the …

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The erotic thrill of ethical restraint

The ethics literature describes the therapeutic frame primarily in terms of what it prohibits. This episode describes …

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The erotic transference you actually enjoyed

The ethics training covers what to do with erotic transference. It does not cover what it is actually like to hold the …

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The fear of being useless when clients actually heal

The therapist's need to be needed is a variable in the termination decision that the clinical literature does not …

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The god complex you never lose

Every experienced therapist operates from a level of confidence in their own perception that the training literature …

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The guilt of enjoying transference

Positive transference makes the work easier and more enjoyable. The profession's response to that fact is management and …

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The love affair that almost happened

The prohibition is clear. The experience it applies to is more common, more textured, and more clinically significant …

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The orgasm nobody names: saving someone

There is an experience that keeps experienced therapists in the field despite everything that works against staying. The …

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The porn addicts I envy

There are clients whose central problem has pleasure at its center rather than pain. A therapist's response to that …

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The power trip of being the safe one

The therapeutic relationship gives the therapist a specific kind of structural advantage that the training literature …

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The secret joy of a client's divorce

The profession teaches that the therapist should have no stake in what the client decides. This episode makes the case …

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The seductive charm of damaged people

There is something that happens in the room with a certain kind of client that the clinical literature describes only in …

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The superiority that keeps us employed

The therapeutic relationship requires the therapist to be in a specific position relative to the client. The training …

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The therapeutic use of a well-timed insult

There is an intervention that works, that experienced therapists use, and that nobody teaches. This episode makes the …

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Therapy for sociopaths who want to get better at it

There is a category of client who comes to therapy to become more effective at the behavior that brought them in, not …

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Transference is just attraction we legalized

The clinical concept of transference is one of the most useful tools in the therapeutic literature and one of the most …

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Unethical fantasies at professional dinners

Every practitioner knows the difference between what gets said at the conference and what gets said at dinner afterward. …

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When holding space becomes emotional masturbation

There is a clinical stance that looks like careful, attentive practice and functions, in a significant number of cases, …

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When silence becomes punishment

Clinical silence is the most powerful tool in the therapeutic kit and the easiest to weaponize. The pause that invites …

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When the couple is better off breaking up (but you need the fee)

There is a financial incentive built into couples therapy that nobody names in training. This episode names it. The …

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When therapy becomes kink with paperwork

The structure of the therapeutic relationship is not as different from certain other structured relationships as the …

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When your client becomes more interesting than your spouse

The work creates an appetite for a quality of presence that the domestic relationship was not designed to satisfy. This …

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Why CBT is for robots

The effect sizes on the gold standard of psychotherapy have been declining for forty years. Most practitioners have seen …

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Why I don't send my kids to therapy

What therapists choose for their own children is a more accurate reading of their real confidence in the field than …

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Why the most ethical thing I ever did looked terrible on paper

There is a category of clinical decision that was right and would not have survived a review board. Most experienced …